Before I start this letter I will like to ask for your forgiveness. I have not been the best friend of late. I have let my overwhelming year get in the way of some of the foundations of my friendships. Forgive me.
It has been exactly 2 years and 3 months since I wrote the last letter to you, my friends. In that time so much and so little has changed. I have grown exponentially yet my world has shrunk down considerably. I have had incredibly joyful highs but the lows have been unbearable. My life has existed in perpetual duality.
For me, to love is to live. So allow me exist in your world. To love you and to live.
I am incredibly privileged to have you in my life. I constantly feel like the touch of the divine is evident in my life through the crop of people I call my friends. I have found so much joy in you and I can only hope I have had such an impact in your life as well.
How are you? Are you getting the love you deserve? Are you seizing the day? Are you eating properly? Are you making sure the people around you know you love them? Have you found some warm embrace, the likes of a toy Babybear? Have you realised the importance of little joys?
To those who have been struck by the cold hands of grief, I pray your heart finds some form of ease. I pray that the memory of those you have lost live forever. I hope you once again find joy in the living and comfort in those still alive.
To those who have lost love, I pray your heart leans into elasticity and bounces back. I hope you find that which is meant for you and fully experience the full depths of love.
‘I know there is a day
All my pains will go away’
I know how tough life can be. I know you do not want to have to be tougher all the time. I know you pray for ease. I know you want nothing more than to live life hitch free. I wish I could be a shooting star for you to wish on and a genie to grant that wish. Since I cannot, I will remain a star whose fire will always be warmth for you, a star whose light will shine enough for you to know that I truly see you. I promise to always be a safe place for you not just to exist, but to live.
I know I can be a pain in the ass but please do not forget to extend grace to me when you believe I have wronged you. I am very far from perfect. I may put up a tough shell but within me exists so much emotion, please be gentle.
I could never call you my friend if I did not love you in some way. I promise to love you always, I promise to love you all ways.
‘…it hasn’t been your day, your week, your month, or even your year
But I’ll be there for you’
Merry Christmas, be cheerful or find some cheer and have a lovely day. Do not forget to breathe and remember, I love you.
Here is a link to my favourite song at the moment. It makes me so happy and I hope it makes you happy too.